2.9.06

Omg, you know what, I realised that maybe he hates me! Not maybe uh, it's true! HURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR this is so fucking funny. I needa glazed donuttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt nowwwwwwwwwwwwww. I needa trim down ya know, maybe I'll go work at the zoo. With animals. Lagi bagus, tak boleh berbual. I love animals anyways they're so fucking adorable. I'm supposed to be sleeeeeeeeepingggggggggggggggggggggggg but why am I still up? I wanna work out and lose the fats. I wanna study till my brains are dripping with soooooooooooooooo much info that after my o's i needa go and buy the mop squeezer thingy to drain everything out. I wanna go and club my fuckin ass off (no alcohol, please) and eat like crazy(and then go on the treadmill at gym). I wanna be stick thin like uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh some pretty model's body. I wanna be anorexic but I dont wanna look like a ghost. Going Bulimic'll make my breath stink. So I shall do yoga. Or maybe dancing. With who, right? UHHHH my imaginary boyfriend, Mr. Prozac! I shall go shopping for so many things that I've always desired. I wanna go to a good JC and fucking ace my A levels and then go to uni and get a decent job. A decent job, a decent future, a decent house(no way!!!!!!!!! a GORGEOUS HUGE house), a decent cat, a decent convertible. I wanna be the perfect daughter, the perfect citizen, the perfect girl for a perfect boy. I want money. I want to buy happiness, love and everything. I wanna go and be a star on Sesame Street and Barney. I wanna be the next It girl. I wanna be Singapore Idol!!!!!!!!!! I wanna meet Hady and marry him cos he looks like you. I want everything that I can't have. I wanna be everything I'm not.

Doesn't everyone?

I want you. But you bastard, you just dont want me do you? You biiiiiiiiiiiiitch! LOL. I ain't losing it uh, I'm just releasing stress. See, the scary things O levels do to you. Tsk tsk

11:31 PM