30.1.07

Skeletons in my closet

Watching Gol Gincu now. I am sick today! Down with fever and not going to school tmr. I have to say that Tuesday is my compulsive day. Like last week I hit this totally dumb girl. Lemme retell the story. She and her posse were standing in the middle of the damn canteen in their own blabbing world and here I was rushing to go for maths class. Okay, maybe not rushing, I just felt like walking through them cos they looked nice to uhh disturb(I told you it was compulsiveness) So anyway, I carried my bag and worked my way through them. While doing so I was hoping that I would hit somebody and BINGO! I heard this really loud scream and lotsa vulgar shit so I turned(like a freaking drama queen). Apparently I hit this girl's hand with my bag causing her to spill green tea all over herself. Instead of being guilty or sorry I pulled this really damn bitch face and gave her some weird handsigns and walked away. Lol! Okay so I felt bad after that and stuff but I felt really satisfied. So... today did some other compulsive things that I forgot what. Cos I'm so sick and screwed up now with a real bad headache.

Now that I'm watching Gol and Gincu, I wish I could find love like that. I wish I knew what he was thinking, I wanna get inside his head. Wish I could tell him somehow what I feel. I can't though, I know I cant and I never will be able to.
Will I?

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