27.3.07

I Kissed a Frog that Wouldn't Turn into a Prince

I had sucha bad night. He hits me all the time): And sometimes it hurts. Cikgu doesnt wanna send us to NJ cos she's scared that we'll make a fool out of her,but she wants us to perform well during SYF. Without exposure it'll be difficult for us to perform on stage on the actual day. I dunno why but I thought that it was a bit selfishof her to think twice about sending us to NJ to perform. And after dance today I left and he didnt even ask where I went. I guess I'm just unnoticable (though I'm not what you'd call small and petite, I'm actually quite big). No, I guess I mean nothing.I guess it's time to finally realise that he doesnt feel shit for me and let go. It's sad though, come to think of it. Though we didnt spend much time with each other I felt that there was actually something going on between the both of us. How careless of me to think that. How naive could I get? I should have guessed right from the start. And as he reads this, how much does anyone wants to bet that he wouldnt comment on what I've said today cos it's all true? It's like that damned song, everyday I love you less and less. Lol. Now its stuck in my head.

I am the victim of cinta monyet. Use and throw. Love her and hate her. Wait, what cinta? what Love? What nonsense is that? True love doesnt exist. At least not right here, not right now.

On a lighter note, I had a good day today definately. I'm finally warming up to the class.

I'm not what I used to be.

11:06 PM