16.3.07

I'm angry. I'm hurt. My hopes have been dashed over and over again. He's said it one too many times but I didn't learn my lesson. Now it's happening again. I'm depressed. Why win my heart and watch it soar up high in the sky, just to let it come crashing down? I'm confused. My mind's a wreck, I'm a mess. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm in too deep to let go.

Okay, now look on the brighter side. Worse things could have happened to someone else. Think of the malnutritioned kids in Somalia and Rwanda. Sad, sad lives. 1 out of 4 die below the age of 5. Didn't even get the chance to fall in love. Praise Allah, I lead such a blessed life compared to them.

If I continue being this way, being depressed and then looking on the brighter side, I think I might just go mad. Being sad then being happy in an instant. It's like the start of insanity. I'm at the brink of madness. And school hasn't even started.

Okay, maybe this is due to the lack of Bubble dosage, hah. Not funny.

11:19 PM