25.4.07

I walked in the rain alone and not even once did you turn back to see if I was okay

Someone said you have this super heck care attitude lah. Like when you're facing a problem and then you can't solve it, you just say ahhh tak pe lah and then leave it. So I guess that's what you're doing to me right now. Just throw me away. I'm just disappointed, way beyond words.

Being so close to you just now was suicide. To be so close yet so far away. I know I shouldn't expect anything of you and I'm not. I just wished that we could be like before. I miss your comforting presence and your reassuring smile. I know I haven't been good to you and you can believe your mates all you want but trust me on this, you were and still are the only one that I feel for.

Useless rantings! Fucking useless rantings. Save it for yourself, Liyana. You know everything you say is useless. U-S-E-L-E-S-S. USELESS. Useless. Omg do yall know, sometimes if you say a word too many times you'd actually forget what it means for a moment? If no then I guess it's just me. Lollllllllllllll. Anw, maybe I should try and force myself to stop feeling for you like you've stopped feeling for me. Maybe I should say.... DISAPPEAR! I dunno how you do it so easily. I'm so envious of you. Like, you know, it's so easy for you to just go around doing your daily stuff like nothing happened. Shit lah, I want that power. That ability to forget. Dang.

So anw, today was IJ thingy. B-O-R-I-N-G. I screwed up while playing the piano because I wasn't playing the piano PIANO you know, I was playing a mini keyboard and I screwed up cos my fingers were all crammed into small spaces. Lol. Damn it. Other than that, boring day.

"Aku hanya pinta secebis hatimu untuk merinduiku"

7:45 PM