5.6.07

Aiyah fuck it lah, I can't fucking sleep! It's 1 am and I have to be at the airport by 4 am to send my beloved brother and his wife to Australia and guess what they're gonna get me stuff from Sportsgirl and then go and meet the playwriters and director at 8 in the damn morning to discuss the totally fucked and screwed up piece of shit of a script which I totally do not want to be involved in and then run to TAPAC for the damn rehearsal at 9 which will require lots of energy and will end at at least 1 in the hot blazing afternoon which is a perfect time to sleep God fuck it and after that I will have to discuss the fucking script again then go home and study and how am I supposed to do all that crap if I don't sleep? Now why can't I just fucking close my eyes and sleep?! Wow.. look at that... Look ma, no full stops! So anyway, if they won't let me get my coffee before we rush down to TAPAC I am going to scream my fucking white ass off and that's just too bad because I'm a wicked bitch and I can't help it just like Fitri was raised to become a fucking girl by his totally psychotic parents even though he's got a freaking dick and he just can't help it. And crap, I haven't even started studying for midyears, I mean, what kinda lazy asshole am I? Everyone's studying, if not all the subjects, at least one and I'm still slacking away thinking I have 48 hours a day when I only have 24. I really cannot understand maths, it's screwing up my brain. Physics is.... I don't even know what physics is because I don't even listen in class and I just don't give a fuck, I don't know why. Malay lit is fucking crap, and my ideas of the lit pieces are entirely different from the teacher's so half the time I'm asking her questions that sound really stupid and the other half of the time I just switch off because I just can't figging click with whatever that's thrown to me. Speaking of clicking, I cannot click with some parts of the script but no one in this God damned world is listening to what I'm saying but that's okay because nobody really does, we all hear but we don't listen and I am just so indifferent right now about this whole thing. There's so much to do but there's so little time to work everything out. And during rehearsals everyone was so tense and I just cannot understand why some people just can't bring themselves to swear. They say "fish" as a substitute for fuck and I just don't know why they just can't say the word fuck when all this time they were saying "fish" they were thinking of saying fuck so instead of thinking just say it what's the big deal. Fuck is just Fornication Under the Consent of the King whereby people need to sign up to fuck one another and need to get approval from the King before doing so. So when you're making love, you have this form thingy on your door to inform all that you're fucking someone. How.. discreet. It's like living in the magical world of Harry Potter when instead of saying Lord Voldermort, everyone else goes "He who must not be named", "You know who" or 'The Dark Lord". That's everyone except for Harry the Hero and Dead Dumbledore.

Whoopdeedoo.

12:56 AM