13.6.07

Angsty siol...

I hate going back to school... Today while I was walking to school, I felt my legs getting heavier and heavier with each step I take. I really dread the dry environment, the lack of reception and the lack of after school activities. At least there's PPP now... When it's over, there's gonna be no more racking of the brain for the script, no more screaming and laughing during rehearsals, no more TAPAC, no more "eh sial lah, SM buat ape ah" with Illie, no more "Ton't you tare tach her!" and no more "Alamak actors... kaku siol..." Ahhh!!!!! I'm going to go crazy with nothing to do... So after PPP I think I'm going to spend a million bucks on shopping cos it's gonna be my only past time. Pfft. So anyway, school sucks... I told mom I wanted to go to Poly but she won't hear any of it... She told me if I hated college, I'm not going anywhere but to Indonesia to learn to be a better servant of God. Wow.. I have such an understanding mother...School was okay... Maths lesson was funny cos I was stoning towards the end of the lesson while he was explaining functions, the topic that I'm clueless about... F-U-N-N-Y...................... Funny. Ahh... see? I'm blabbing. And when the Fag walked past, Farid looked at me and said "Aku nampak dia dengan satu perempuan ni tau..." Like I give a heck!?!?! Alamak... siol lah, aku nak pergi tengok tu Bulan Madu tapi semorang tak free siol... Aku punya cousin dah ade boyfriend baru, dah tak de orang nak drive aku lagi... Aku seriously nak tengok ah, confirm best rabak... Aku nak beli baju baru mesti ada reason lah beb... Kalau tak... waste money siol... Tangan aku dah gatal nak beli baju Topshop ngan tu vest kat Ripcurl ah... Camne ni... Ni tak boleh jadi ni... Aku mesti paksa tu minah gi tengok tu Bulan Madu ah... HAHAHAHAHAH mother of all God... I'm sucha failure at typing malay... But I really wanna watch Bulan Madu! Damn damn damn damn damn! And I need to plan from today onwards. I need to plan when to train for the marathon (next year) hahahahahaha... I guess I have to relinquish my dreams of being a couch potato this year... I've said it and I'll say it again! I REFUSE TO GROW FAT-ter! Mwahahaha.... But really... I have to stick to my new vow... I looked at myself in the mirror today in PJ uniform and I look really fat in it... Big, more like it... Obese... Giganto...I look horrible in my jeans too... I think the seams have already split... SPRWLAT! Like that... And tmr got chem test ah, fuckadoodahday... Tmr will be a new day... Tmr I will wake up. I will!!!!!!!! I will start to mug for the last few days before school reopens! Except for Friday lah, and maybe Saturday but Sunday I am definitely not free... OMG! So I'm left with... only tmr!!!!!!!!!! Hahahaha giler lah siol... Mampos aku macam ni...

Mama, I love you
Mama, I care...

I love butterflies. Don't you?
When the dog bites, when the bee stings,
when I'm feeling sad,
I simply remember my favorite things,
and then I don't feel so bad.

Jamal suggested I run the marathon. I think I should go shopping now.


Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes

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